I’ve been with Matt in the hospital non-stop since Sunday night at 9PM. The only time I’ve left is to go home to see the kids and try to keep them in some sort of normalcy at the moment. OK, and I’ve showered. 🙂 There’s something genuinely delicious about a good shower. Over the last 3 days I’ve been trying my best to be strong for my husband, my sons, my immediate family and my in-laws. I’ve never been the one to need to be the rock before, but for the first time… I need to be truly the adult. I’m the one that needs to ask the questions. I’m the one that needs to be Matt’s best advocate.
As I’ve been here and allowed Matt to sleep and doze off here and there, I’ve realized some pretty incredible things… things that I know for sure (and I’m totally not trying to steal this from Oprah):
1. I will never ever, ever take ONE day for granted. EVER. I’m not kidding. Just Sunday night before all this happened I was complaining about feeling stressed over the housework and work and booking an upcoming vacation. Silly stuff. I wish to God right now that was all I still had to complain about. But you know what – these things all work out. The chores get done. The work somehow always pulls through and works itself out and the vacation… who really cares about the extra money it would be, right? Life is worth living in the moment. And everything single moment and second is precious.
2. Friends are truly an amazing thing. I’m not usually one to need people for things. I’ve got my family and my close friends, but I’m not really one to reach out and ever ask for anything. I’ve always been that way. I guess I’ve always figured, I can do it… I don’t need to bother people. Well… what an education I’ve had over the last 3 days. I cannot get over the amazingness of my friends. The calls, the texts, the emails, the FB messages, the tweets. People offering to fly here and help out. One of our best friend’s came yesterday to see Matt and sat with us all day for 6 hours! People sending food. People just being incredibly good people who care. Friends… we all need them. And I am blessed to have them.
3. Always go to the doctor when you feel like something is wrong or just “off.” I can’t stress enough how important this is… Matt just felt off and I could tell he was in some pain, thank GOD we went to the hospital.
4. Family is the MOST important thing in the world. My family has been my support always, but over the last 3 days… well, they’ve been my survival.
5. My sons… it never ceases to amaze me how much joy they bring me. Even a simple game of Battleship today with Alexander and hearing Ben say to me, “Mom… I farted on you.” It’s the simple things, right?