The 30/30/30 Project (Day #30)

On October 5, my countdown began: 30 days until my 30th birthday. In honor of this, on each of the 30 days leading up to my birthday I will recount one memory from the past 30 years… either one that has helped define me, one that makes me laugh, one that makes me think, one that encourages me…  or maybe a little of everything. If possible, I will post a photo to go along with the memory.

It’s my30/30/30 Project: 30 years. 30 memories. 30 days.

Here is my memory for Day #30:

Two years ago, on the eve of my 30th birthday, I remember thinking about the fact that I was in my late 20s, married – and not anywhere near being ready for kids. I even wrote about it.

After listing reasons why I wasn’t yet ready for children, I said:

So let’s revisit this in 2 years, on the eve of me turning 30. We’ll see where I am on the having kids front.

Well, here we are. Tomorrow is the big 30th birthday. No, I haven’t had any kids yet. I’m actually no longer married.

Am I ready for kids? Actually… yes.

My ideal plan is marriage then baby, so I will have to get the “marriage” thing checked off the list first, but whereas two years ago I honestly couldn’t see having children in my near future, now I can.

It’s not like now that I’m turning 30 I feel like I have to have kids. Sure, it’s kind of funny to me that when Audrey turned 30 a little over 2 years ago, she was pregnant with her 4th child… but to me it’s not an age or a comparison thing.

I think that it’s the confidence that I’m with someone who I can wholeheartedly envision as the father of my children. Brian is the most amazing thing that has come into my life in the two years since I wrote that post on the eve of my 28th birthday.

I don’t know what I did in life to deserve someone who seems to intuitively know exactly what I need at every moment, but I will take it!

He is kind, loving, caring, supportive, respectful and compassionate… he is both strong and sensitive, powerful and gentle. He can lift and build things with his two hands, but make me feel safe and secure with his arms wrapped around me.

I would go to the ends of the earth for Brian, and I know he would do the same for me. And that is the kind of man I want as the father of my children.

Knowing that really is the best birthday gift of all.

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Audrey McClelland has been a digital influencer since 2005. She’s a mom of 5 and shares tips on her three favorite things: parenting, fashion and beauty. She’s also a Contemporary Romance Author.

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8 Comments

  1. 11.4.10
    Jillian said:

    Happy 30th Birthday! Something changes in you when you turn 30, it’s almost like your grown up gene kicks in! Have a great day

  2. 11.4.10
    Sky said:

    Such a beautiful post!

    People come and go in our lives…it’s the right people that make it worth living!

    Happy Birthday!

  3. 11.4.10
    Connie said:

    SO glad to see you SO happy on your birthday.
    You (and Brian) deserve all this happiness.

  4. 11.4.10

    I’m so happy for you. You and Brian are definitely a perfect pair! Happy Birthday Jane!!

  5. 11.4.10
    Dad said:

    That’s a nice way to feel, isn’t it!

  6. 11.4.10
    Lucy said:

    Happy Birthday Jane, may all of your wishes come true.

  7. 11.5.10
    Kim said:

    So maybe the real reason you haven’t been ready for kids until now is because you couldn’t yet see their father – now you can 🙂 This is wonderful Jane and I’ve no doubt that ALL your wishes will come true -Happy Birthday!

  8. 11.5.10
    admin said:

    My beautiful baby girl… this post is so happy, so open, so eternal, so perfect… the VERY place I prayed and hoped for all my children. I, too, never saw the babies in anyone’s eyes ’til I met your Daddy. It is the greatest miracle to SEE and FEEL this. I love you, Honey! I love how life takes us on the greatest journeys. Yes!!?? xxxoooxxx!!! Love, Mom

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