I want to thank you all for reaching out to my family throughout the last 6 days. The death of my grandmother is something that has shaken our family… for she was the true and utter matriarch.
I have been asking her to send me some signs lately… letting me know that she is around and watching over our family.
I have been blessed to see a double rainbow.
I have been blessed to see big, yellow balloons. Yellow was her favorite color. And I had asked her to send some yellow balloons.
I have been reading the scrapbook I made her for her 89th birthday this past March 9th. Each time I read it, I “feel” her spirit with me.
My Nana blessed my life with her presence alone. I don’t know how I will cope without hearing her voice… or hearing her laugh… or seeing her smile. It will be those things I miss the most. Mostly I will miss making her laugh. Her laugh filled the room.
She left a beautiful handwritten letter to our family to be read after her passing. Within it she told us to go on and live our lives… “Start out bravely with a gallant smile,” she wrote.
For that I will do today. A new day.
My Nana was laid to rest yesterday… and many, many tears were shed by the hundreds of people who she touched in her lifetime.
Today I will honor my Nana with this beautiful, sunny new day.
I will smile. I will hug and kiss my boys. I will love and live and go on… for her.
And the piece of my heart that is broken right now… I know that over time it will be filled again. Filled with memories of Nana. And stories that my family will share. Of that, I am sure.
Again, thank you to everyone for reaching out to us… it will never, ever be forgotten…